I believe I can see the next bar I should grab. Yup. There it is. In my sight.
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Saturday, August 13, 2011
Thursday, August 11, 2011
My Driving Trip with Big Nose
Change is never easy, you fight to hold on, and you fight to let go. – The Wonder Years
There are a few expectations I had for Colorado. #1: Denver is so large, you aren't going to run into people you know all the time. Specifically, people you have slept with.
So much for that expectation. I was driving to see my aunt for an evening concert in the park. I have to leave pretty early to somewhat avoid traffic. Although, to be honest, I never can avoid it.
I'm driving along..when BAM. Traffic. It comes to a stop. Fine...whatever. I have my music....There is an SUV in front of me, with a familiar turtle sticker. I think, "Hmm, I've seen that before. Wait, I've been in that car before." Oh shit. It's him. Big Nose. Really?! He doesn't live around here. He doesn't work around here. What the hell?? Out of all the people I could see?! There is so much traffic that I am sure I can lose him, without him noticing me.
Hopeful thinking.
At one point, I've passed him, and then he passes me. SHIT. I watched him, and he was clearly looking in his rear view mirror. I passed him again, thinking, "Ok, this is it, I'm going to lose him." Nope. I watched with horror as the lane to my left sped up, while my lane slowed down. He passed me again, looking in his rear view mirror. He is relatively short, so I know when he has to sit all the way up in his seat and lean forward, he is checking out the rearview mirror. It made me nervous when I rode with him. I wanted to scream, "JUST ADJUST THE MIRROR!"
"Yes, dumbass, it's me. No doubt about it. How many people do you see driving around with NC plates??" This continued for at least 20 minutes, maybe longer. It sure did feel longer. I passed him. He passed me. All the while, I pretended not to notice him. But, he clearly knew it was me. I could feel his eyes burning holes in me.
To my point:
He is the one that blew me off. Not me. HIM. I'm not going to wave and smile, and act like everything is OK. Because its not. He blew me off. I don't play. My aunt and I actually had a conversation about people who are unreliable. She asked me, 'How come you always come when you say you will, but my other friends don't?" Easy answer, "One of my biggest pet peeves is when someone blows me off. So, I'm not about to do it to someone else."
I'm thrilled. "It's a great hair day. I feel skinny. My make up looks great. I'm wearing my sexy sunglasses. I look hot. So take that, Big Nose! You are missing out!"
I finally took my exit, losing him.....
How is it possible that I can run into people I know, in this massive city?! I mean, COME ON! Give me a break. I had finally forgotten about him...and then BAM. He's there.
The article from earlier today put things into perspective though. I've let go of him, of that bar. I'm flying now. No going back. No going back, trying to grab that bar. It's gone. And if I try to reach for it, I will surely fall....and I'm not willing to fall. I'm waiting for the next bar....
Peace out Big Nose.
There are a few expectations I had for Colorado. #1: Denver is so large, you aren't going to run into people you know all the time. Specifically, people you have slept with.
So much for that expectation. I was driving to see my aunt for an evening concert in the park. I have to leave pretty early to somewhat avoid traffic. Although, to be honest, I never can avoid it.
I'm driving along..when BAM. Traffic. It comes to a stop. Fine...whatever. I have my music....There is an SUV in front of me, with a familiar turtle sticker. I think, "Hmm, I've seen that before. Wait, I've been in that car before." Oh shit. It's him. Big Nose. Really?! He doesn't live around here. He doesn't work around here. What the hell?? Out of all the people I could see?! There is so much traffic that I am sure I can lose him, without him noticing me.
Hopeful thinking.
At one point, I've passed him, and then he passes me. SHIT. I watched him, and he was clearly looking in his rear view mirror. I passed him again, thinking, "Ok, this is it, I'm going to lose him." Nope. I watched with horror as the lane to my left sped up, while my lane slowed down. He passed me again, looking in his rear view mirror. He is relatively short, so I know when he has to sit all the way up in his seat and lean forward, he is checking out the rearview mirror. It made me nervous when I rode with him. I wanted to scream, "JUST ADJUST THE MIRROR!"
"Yes, dumbass, it's me. No doubt about it. How many people do you see driving around with NC plates??" This continued for at least 20 minutes, maybe longer. It sure did feel longer. I passed him. He passed me. All the while, I pretended not to notice him. But, he clearly knew it was me. I could feel his eyes burning holes in me.
To my point:
He is the one that blew me off. Not me. HIM. I'm not going to wave and smile, and act like everything is OK. Because its not. He blew me off. I don't play. My aunt and I actually had a conversation about people who are unreliable. She asked me, 'How come you always come when you say you will, but my other friends don't?" Easy answer, "One of my biggest pet peeves is when someone blows me off. So, I'm not about to do it to someone else."
I'm thrilled. "It's a great hair day. I feel skinny. My make up looks great. I'm wearing my sexy sunglasses. I look hot. So take that, Big Nose! You are missing out!"
I finally took my exit, losing him.....
How is it possible that I can run into people I know, in this massive city?! I mean, COME ON! Give me a break. I had finally forgotten about him...and then BAM. He's there.
The article from earlier today put things into perspective though. I've let go of him, of that bar. I'm flying now. No going back. No going back, trying to grab that bar. It's gone. And if I try to reach for it, I will surely fall....and I'm not willing to fall. I'm waiting for the next bar....
Peace out Big Nose.
My Day/Week/Month/Year? of Flying Through the Air
It is not the strongest of the species that survive, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change. -Charles Darwin
While trolling the internet for worthy blogs to read, I came across Jenny. She used to worked for Google for 5 and half years and then quit to pursue her dreams. She is currently a speaker, coach and author. In one of her vlog posts, she mentions this article. It is about how we go through life holding onto one trapeze bar. We hold on tight because we are comfortable and relaxed there. We can even become paralyzed by fear. Eventually, we know we are going to have to let go because change is coming. We will have to swing to the next bar we can't even see yet. And it's in that moment, flying through the air, we make the biggest growth.
At the moment, I am flying through the air. I quit the most stable job I have ever had, to move back to Colorado. I left many friends behind. I moved without knowing what was going to happen in the next week, month or year. I didn't let the uncertainty paralyze me. And during this time, I have had the opportunity to reflect on my life, who I am, what makes me tick, what makes me smile. This can be applied to all aspects of my life; family, friends, money, dating, etc.
Jenny mentions how we know what we should do in our hearts, but our mind tends to take over the practical matters, limiting what we actually do. I allowed my heart to take over to bring me to this place. I knew I was sacrificing a job, money, benefits, and stability. And I still don't know what's around the corner. But here I am. Living my life. Perfectly happy with the choice I made. I had the courage to let go of the first bar and I'm thrilled to know the second bar is right around the corner...
What change or transitions are you going through, or will be going through?
While trolling the internet for worthy blogs to read, I came across Jenny. She used to worked for Google for 5 and half years and then quit to pursue her dreams. She is currently a speaker, coach and author. In one of her vlog posts, she mentions this article. It is about how we go through life holding onto one trapeze bar. We hold on tight because we are comfortable and relaxed there. We can even become paralyzed by fear. Eventually, we know we are going to have to let go because change is coming. We will have to swing to the next bar we can't even see yet. And it's in that moment, flying through the air, we make the biggest growth.
At the moment, I am flying through the air. I quit the most stable job I have ever had, to move back to Colorado. I left many friends behind. I moved without knowing what was going to happen in the next week, month or year. I didn't let the uncertainty paralyze me. And during this time, I have had the opportunity to reflect on my life, who I am, what makes me tick, what makes me smile. This can be applied to all aspects of my life; family, friends, money, dating, etc.
Jenny mentions how we know what we should do in our hearts, but our mind tends to take over the practical matters, limiting what we actually do. I allowed my heart to take over to bring me to this place. I knew I was sacrificing a job, money, benefits, and stability. And I still don't know what's around the corner. But here I am. Living my life. Perfectly happy with the choice I made. I had the courage to let go of the first bar and I'm thrilled to know the second bar is right around the corner...
What change or transitions are you going through, or will be going through?
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